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4) You don't have to read this cheerleader
Sorry if I depress anyone with this message but I'm really down and I need to let it out.
I started cutting myself in yr7 in October now I'm in yr8 and it's still going. Everyone knows about it - my "friends", parents, teachers, form - and now they think I'm better, but to be honest it's gotten worse than ever.
Two weeks ago I tried to commit suicide - I blacked out for almost half an hour before I came round, but I haven't been to hospital. If I go more than two hours without cutting than I get really dizzy and I can't concentrate until I've cut again. The scars are horrible -they're all over both my arms and hips and I can't bare to look at them. I fell out with my best friend recently because she says I get her down too much and she doesn't like being around me. When I was having this argument with this girl in my class she said that none of my friends like me and that they all want me dead. My mates denied it but I could tell by the way they looked at me that it was true. The second I turn my back I can hear them talking about me. I just can't cope anymore. Reply
re: You don't have to
read this Cookie
It sounds like your friends and school do really want to help you to get better.
It sounds weird, but maybe you are depressing your mates by talking to them about you dying and things, I mean, with any stretch of the imagination you can't call it normal conversation, can you? However, there is no reason why they should treat you any differently because of it. Statistics show that you may not even be the only person in your class that self harms, or had self harmed, so you aren't really that unusual, it's just that you were found out, the thing that the others will dread most.
Sometimes depressed feelings just well up inside you, making your life an unbearable stress. This stress may become so bad that you feel that the only way you can let people notice it is by doing something very definite - like trying to hurt yourself. Although you don't have to have a reason, problems at home or school, or with friends are usually the cause.
The self harm seems to come
out of deep and complicated feelings of anguish, fear and hate for yourself.
However, in another way it appears to help people keep going at times when they
feel that they wouldn't otherwise be able to cope with life. It almost becomes a
ritual to cut yourself when things get really desperate. Cutting also seems to
be linked with finding it hard to express yourself in talking to other people.
But at the same time it does have the effect of drawing attention to yourself
and your frustrated emotional needs. Once again, the way to get help with this
is to try and talk about your feelings about it to someone who is close to you
who you trust.
Other tips are to have a list
of alternatives to do when you feel like cutting yourself - ring a friend, do
some cooking or go for a walk, a swim, a run - any sort of exercise. All these
things can act a distraction and stop the desperate urge to cut.
Please don't be too hard on
yourself - everyone has bleak, black days when we feel worthless and the world's
against us. We just differ in how we deal with it. However bad things seem,
there is an alternative to cutting.
If you self harm,
remember it's not your fault and you have a right to treatment. You don't have
to keep it secret or let it rule your life. Talk to someone today. Your GP can
prescribe drugs to ease anxiety while you explore new coping strategies with a
psychiatric nurse or behavioural therapist. Once harming is stabilised,
counselling can help resolve any underlying problems. Self-help groups can also
be extremely useful, giving support and practical advice. GPs should have
information about local groups.
Good Luck, honey. Cookie -x- Reply
re: You don't have to
read this devil girl
Hi Cookie that is extremely good advice. It explains a lot about how I feel as well as says there is another way which is really helpful.
lots of love, Devil Reply
